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I Am My Parent's Child

In talking over last night's dream with Dr. W., he suggested that I repeat, "I am my parent's child," over and over as a way of acceptance. I repeated that mantra while doing this painting. We are of the same tree but I must find my own truth and beauty in the stream of life.

I project on my mother the role of condemning me as a traitor. In spite of all the exhibits of my artwork and talking openly about the past, there is a part of me - a judgmental mother figure - who scorns my activities. My mother may have also scorned my paintings but I think the dream is more concerned with my inner life than with my actual relationship with my mother.


Dream:

I went to visit my parents in California. I was struck by the fact that they were always moving and not welcome anywhere. My feeling was - not only were they unwanted by their children, but by each other as well. Impulsively, I invited Mom to come and visit us. As I woke up, I thought - oh no - I will have to hide all of my paintings, and even then she will find out that I told. I have betrayed my ancestors.


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