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Daddy Enraged

Dr. W. guided me through role-playing with my three aspects of self. I simply couldn’t take the role of my angry self. So when I got home, I decided to let her paint again. For the first time, I painted a “child view” image in a life-size scale. I have been going through yet another spiral of emotion centered on my father. I am seeing how very wrong it was, and is, for anyone to be beaten. No one has the right to beat others, especially helpless children.

Like the girl in the dream, I have found a way around the taboo on telling. But I also have to be alert to ways that I try to shoot myself down by demeaning my efforts.


Dream:

The children had a secret and someone was shooting them one by one, so they wouldn’t tell. A high-powered rifle was used so that death took them unaware. A teenage girl, who couldn’t speak, wrote music to tell the secret. Just as she was conducting the symphony to play the piece she was shot. I had the sense of both doing the shooting and being shot.


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