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The Prince is Hidden

I need to accept the toad like aspects of myself. Perhaps that is why I wish to share my experience with sex offenders. If I find some aspect of them redeemable, then I might be able to forgive and redeem parts of myself. At the root, we suffer a similar illness but they are actively contagious. A probation officer who took an offender to see my show said the offender cried, a rare show of emotion. If my work plants a seed of empathy, perhaps it will evolve into compassion towards others. That possibility compels me to make the effort.

The toad prince, my despised inner masculine self, has heart. He maintains that there is more to him than just a reflection of past assailants. Beneath that image hides the mentors who taught me to pursue literature, philosophy, art, self-knowledge and self-defense. Last year I dreamed of the masculine being kept in a small square box. I thought he couldn't be released until I was willing to kiss the toad. Apparently that time has come.


Dream:

There was a man who looked like a toad. He was searching for another man, a prince, very handsome, charming and afraid. The women hid the prince in a sliding hidden space in a bookshelf. When the toad-like man showed up, I found myself strangely drawn to him. I kissed him and felt a great love for him.


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