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Learning to Fly

Dr. W. and I had been congratulating one another on how much work we had done and on how well things were moving along. He said, “And someday maybe you will know what you are going to paint before you paint it instead of this weird kind of channeling that you do.” I nodded my head in agreement at the time. But the next morning I woke up in alarm, “Weird kind of channeling!?!” Oh my God, that was the one thing I was confident that I was doing right! I was really upset. In fact, this was probably transference at work again, an out-of-proportion reaction to a perceived rejection. By the end of the day, I had worked through the conflict and realized that I was doing it exactly right but his remark caused me to question myself, my process of painting and, then, my trust in him. If he seemed to be so wrong about something I felt was important, could I really trust him? My way of discovering how I felt about him was to trust my weird kind of channeling. I stood before the easel and asked my inner self-how she felt about Dr. W. Does she trust him? In this image I see that he perceives where I am now and where he would like me to be someday. This means that he is not just sitting there recording. He has a vision. I do trust him.


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