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Smiling on the Outside

Feelings of rejection have been a major force in my life so I decided to paint the feeling of being under a cloud with nothing to protect myself. Then I immediately drew the “real” me, a smiling persona, to shield her or, perhaps, to deny her existence as I walk away with my mysterious balloons. Do they contain other, as yet, unacknowledged aspects of my self?

This ramshackle place built from rejected trash houses my soul; I think it is time to examine the materials going into this grim remodeling project. All of these ground up memories continue to be a part of me but I can expand into new possibilities. I am ready to search for what lies between walls of rejection and a false facade. It frightens me to realize that swimming through the foreboding slime pit is the only way out of here.


Dream:

There was a ramshackle house-maybe we were living in it. We were fixing it up by putting old stuff into a grinder and pouring the chips in a mold. We were making various sized bricks of this stuff. We used the bricks to build new walls inside the old house - rebuilding the house from the inside out. The view out the back door was a deep pit filled with water. . .like a gravel pit but kind of junky - a dangerous place.


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